Can't Decide

Posted this today, a song by the brilliant hardcore-punkband Black Flag.
Not only did I post this because it features my personal hero Henry Rollins, but also because of the content of this song...

Sun's coming up and I can't decide
To spill my emotions or keep them inside
Go for a drive, go to the store
I'm looking for something that can't be bought there

I always wear a smile
Because anything but a smile would make me have to explain
And they wouldn't understand anyway
I conceal my feelings so I won't have to explain
What I can't explain anyway

I can't decide
I can't decide
I can't decide anything

I can't decide
I can't decide
I can't decide anything

Every time I open my mouth
I always wish I had kept it shut
I gotta spill my guts - but I don't dare
I take a look around, I know that no one else cares

Sun's coming up and I can't decide
To spill my emotions or keep them inside
Go for a drive, go to the store
I'm looking for something that can't be bought there

I always wear a smile
Because anything but a smile would make me have to explain
And they wouldn't understand anyway
I conceal my feelings so I won't have to explain
What I can't explain anyway

I can't decide
I can't decide

I don't think I have to spell out what this song is all about. And I do relate to this...
It's how I spend a majority of my days these last months. I do try to just let all my frustration and loneliness go and try to become more numb as it were.
Try to let go of all the notions that I absolutely need somebody to be happy. Just to make my life bearable to live...
Needless to say that I'm failing miserably at the moment.