What’s this what I hear? I know that communication between us had weakened. That we lost sight of each other after a long and difficult period. I had it hard when I had to work past it. I had it hard when I tried to help you. To help you get off of the drugs, to help you get past the shit you’d been through. I suffered with you for a long time and wouldn’t let go of you. You were a part of me. Then I wanted to be happy with you but after a year of suffering I came to find that it was just impossible. You dragged me down with you, all your pain and hurt was imprinted on me as well. Even though we had found some solutions to most problems, I’d never thought that one of those problems would remain underneath the surface. I would never have thought that you would start over with the drugs… All of the sudden I hear these rumours about you using the shit you used to take. If it were just a simple joint I wouldn’t bother about it but I can’t neglect the things I hear. I’d like you to tell me what’s going on but I’m afraid that you’ll remain closed and won’t let me in on your dark side.
I know your life’s a mess, all the pain you carry around caused by your family. The continuing shit between you and your parents. Between your parents themselves, and all the rest as well. It’s easy to get lost in the drugs, to escape from reality for only a short while. To feel great for a few hours and then to fall facedown into the concrete. A broken home situation is never easy. Not for you neither for your sister or you parents. It’s a fucked up situation for everyone. Now I understand why you’re having so much trouble at school. Losing 3 years in a row and changing school because of the problems. And all along I didn’t know of anything. We used to be so close, we used to have no secrets for each other. But I’ve got my own life now. Life’s come between us, your path lies far from mine and still, sometimes I wonder how you are. If you’ll ever be happy with someone. Someone that will be there to take care of you, to make you feel secure. There was I time when I thought that guy was me but now I know it’s not. I’ve got my own life and my own lady to make happy, to love ‘till the end of times. But still I want to help you out if you’re experiencing problems. But it’s been so quiet between us that I don’t even know you anymore. I’ve got no idea what you like nowadays, who your friends are and how you’re feeling. Everything’s changed and most of all, You’ve changed.
I hope that your hard road is almost behind you and that the future will bring you happiness and comfort. I hope that you’ll finish school and get a nice job later on. I wish you all the things you want as long as you’re happy. That’s the meaning of our lives, just to become satisfied with the love you get. You might think that you’re happy when you’re escaping this world but nothing’s farther from the truth. Happiness lies within ourselves and the people we live with. It’s not easy to find but once you’ve got it, you won’t let go.
Just let go of the pain and take a look at who you are. It’s time to be happy…
